Excerpt 31

[music: Albinoni’s Adagio]

As a teenager, I desperately tried to be perfect to earn my parents’ love.

I became a very devout Episcopalian and prayed repeatedly, “Dear God, Please make me as perfect as is humanly possible.”

Then, I would make a mistake, according to the rules that I had created for myself,  and would repeat the Dear God mantra over and over.

If I were perfect, then maybe they would love me.


 Nancy never told me anything about boys or sex.

Without any explanation, one night she dropped off a classmate  and me in front of a movie theater….

Albert Finney in the role of  Tom Jones cinematically introduced me to carnal pleasures.


Come to think of it…just about everything I knew about life as a young girl, I learned at the movies.

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