[music: Albinoni’s Adagio]
As a teenager, I desperately tried to be perfect to earn my parents’ love.
I became a very devout Episcopalian and prayed repeatedly, “Dear God, Please make me as perfect as is humanly possible.”
Then, I would make a mistake, according to the rules that I had created for myself, and would repeat the Dear God mantra over and over.
If I were perfect, then maybe they would love me.
Nancy never told me anything about boys or sex.
Without any explanation, one night she dropped off a classmate and me in front of a movie theater….
Albert Finney in the role of Tom Jones cinematically introduced me to carnal pleasures.
Come to think of it…just about everything I knew about life as a young girl, I learned at the movies.